-9.8

So, I forgot to post last night. We'll just pretend this was posted yesterday. I have now lost 9.8 pounds. However, I DEFINITELY cheated this week. I could not stay on track. I really have absolutely no self control. I don't really have much to say other than that. At least I still lost some weight!

-8.1 lbs

I lost another 2.9 pounds this week. However, I definitely cheated this week. I have very little self control when it's my "time of the month." I gave in to wanting sweets and ate some powdered sugar donuts. I also ate out several times this week (but I did limit myself to grilled chicken salads at those restaurants). I am determined to do better this week, but at least I lost something.

-5.2 lbs

Well...it's the end of Week 1 and I seem to have made it. I am down 5.2 pounds which puts me at 192.4, and I'm still sticking to it. I don't know how I made it through this week without totally cheating on the diet, but I did. And I'm so proud of myself. I know the weight loss will slow down eventually, but I really hope to make my goal by the end of the year. Go me!!!

1/6

It is the third day of my diet and I'm starting to get into the pattern. I have a shake before work; a shake at lunch; and a shake when I get home. At dinnertime I allow myself half a cup of applesauce.
Technically I shouldn't be eating the applesauce, but I need the sweetness of it to survive. I know this is worth it, but its really hard not to eat after working with Seniors in high school all day.

1/4

So, today was the first full day on the diet, and I am super cranky. I want to eat so badly. I'm not hungry, the shakes really do keep me full, but I WANT to eat. I hate this. People tell me to start off easier and not be so drastic about my dieting, but those people don't understand how I eat. I eat because I WANT to, not because I'm hungry. I can't remember the last time I was ACTUALLY physically hungry. When I say "I'm hungry," what I mean is, "It's time to eat," or "I'm bored," or "I need an emotional fix." I never actually mean that "I'm hungry." The reason I can't succeed at Weight Watchers right now is because I can't make good decisions. If I am able to eat, then I will eat the things that taste the best to me and that create the most comfort for me. I can't make good choices about my food options and portions. So, I am cutting myself off from food for a while. I will only consume shakes for the next few weeks. I plan on adding in exercise next week, after I am over the crankiness. Once all of my shakes are gone, I may start Weight Watchers, or I may buy more shakes...I'm not sure yet. However, I am going to start focusing on myself and working through my food issues. But right now...I just want to scream and eat an Ice Cream Sandwich, but I won't.

Starting weight

Ok. Here goes all of my dignity. My starting weight is 197.6.
That means I need to weigh 147.6 by the end of the year. I know I can do it!

New Year's Resolution- 2010

Here's my Resolution for this year....Lose 50 pounds.  I know...it's a big goal, but I'm a big girl.  I will be starting this Resolution on Monday, January 4th.  (I am giving myself the weekend to get my head around this.)  

The reason for this Blog is to hold myself accountable.  I have realized that I have very little willpower, and the one thing that will keep me going is accountability.  

I have tried the gamut of diets.  In college I tried Weight Watchers for the first time.  I lost 20 pounds, but then I stopped and gained it all back.  I have gone back to Weight Watchers 4 times, but I can't seem to stick with it.  Last year I tried Health Management Resources, a Doctor supervised all liquid diet.  I lost 30 pounds, but I didn't stick with the maintenance program and I have gained it all back (plus more).  In other words, I need to learn to stick with something and create a lifestyle change.  This is where the Blog comes in.  

I figure, if I put myself out there, tell the whole world that I am committed to losing 50 pounds, then I will be forced to stick with it.  Who knows, maybe people will start to read this.  Maybe not.  Either way, I will be holding myself accountable. I will be starting this diet by going back on the Health Management Resources all liquid diet. It consists of consuming nothing but shakes that I make by mixing up the packaged powder with water. It actually doesn't taste too bad and it keeps me feeling full. I plan to use up the remaining shakes I have from the previous time I attempted this diet. Once the shakes are gone, I will reassess my progress and decide if I want to stick with the shakes or move on to Weight Watchers. I don't know yet, but I will be posting my starting weight on Sunday night.  Then, after work on Monday, and every consecutive Monday, I will posting my weight loss and current weight.  

Well...here it goes...Wish me luck!