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So, today was the first full day on the diet, and I am super cranky. I want to eat so badly. I'm not hungry, the shakes really do keep me full, but I WANT to eat. I hate this. People tell me to start off easier and not be so drastic about my dieting, but those people don't understand how I eat. I eat because I WANT to, not because I'm hungry. I can't remember the last time I was ACTUALLY physically hungry. When I say "I'm hungry," what I mean is, "It's time to eat," or "I'm bored," or "I need an emotional fix." I never actually mean that "I'm hungry." The reason I can't succeed at Weight Watchers right now is because I can't make good decisions. If I am able to eat, then I will eat the things that taste the best to me and that create the most comfort for me. I can't make good choices about my food options and portions. So, I am cutting myself off from food for a while. I will only consume shakes for the next few weeks. I plan on adding in exercise next week, after I am over the crankiness. Once all of my shakes are gone, I may start Weight Watchers, or I may buy more shakes...I'm not sure yet. However, I am going to start focusing on myself and working through my food issues. But right now...I just want to scream and eat an Ice Cream Sandwich, but I won't.